I have lived a thousand days
like today the sluggish sky
dragging a finger through clouds.
So much silence—
each yellow door closing.
The bowl of fruit carefully
arranged so the apples don’t spoil
the bananas.
Clean dishrags creased
along the oven door
like white teeth.
I am no longer hungry.
Am overfed. Have fed the orchids
ice. When I shift away
from the sun, my faith cools.
If I stay here long enough. If I long
enough.
Accidie by Heidi Seaborn | Sandalwood Poetry Reed Diffuser
Heidi Seaborn is the author of three books of poetry: tic tic tic (Cornerstone, 2025), An Insomniac’s Slumber Party with Marilyn Monroe, Give a Girl Chaos, and three chapbooks. She’s won numerous awards including The Missouri Review Editors Prize in Poetry. Heidi is Executive Editor of The Adroit Journal and holds degrees from Stanford and New York University. heidiseabornpoet.com
